Another Week

We are three weeks into 2012. It's amazing how time continues to fly by. Five hundred and four (504), hours have zipped by and the world continues to spin. I am making an attempt to keep track of my progress in therapy/counseling. Dr. Harper seems pretty cool, but I need more. Eventually Stacie will have to come into the picture somehow. Her participation and understanding of the process and my progress is crucial. A class and great notes is not going to cut it.

Since the rent is going up $100, we have decided not to renew our lease. We are moving out of Shadow Hills Apt. by February 3, 2012. Samira and Sidney will continue to go school at Robert Gray and Rieke Elementary schools respectively. Both of them are doing very well in school. Sidney is going on a field trip this week. Report on that next week. Samira is playing basketball again for Showtime.

I have been working graveyard shift as a security guard for ABM Security since September 14, 2011. It's not glamorous, nor desirable, but it pays the bills for now. I still want to write but I have been hit incredibly hard by a writer's block and I have been gripped by fear. The result is I can't seem to but anything down on paper and if I do, I don't feel it's good enough. I may need to mention that in counseling.

I have been to counseling for depression the past 2 weeks. The therapist is Dr. Theo Harper. He's OK, but I need to have more one-on-one time. My concern is that the information and counseling I get makes a difference in my relationship with with Stacie. I feel as if my marriage is coming apart and the worst thing is, Stacie seems totally oblivious to it. There's no real communication or connection between us. I have no social life and i don't even go to church anymore. (Con'd)