Ingrown Toenail

My big toe on my left foot has been red and swollen due to what turned out to be an ingrown toenail. I have been suffering for the past 2 weeks, more or less, from pain caused by a swollen toe. On Sunday morning Jan 22, I went to work. The pain was so bad, I could barely walk or put pressure on my left foot. When I arrived home after work, Stacie advised me to go to urgent care. I went around 2:30. The doctor give me some medication and wrapped it. I went home and went to sleep.

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Another Week

We are three weeks into 2012. It's amazing how time continues to fly by. Five hundred and four (504), hours have zipped by and the world continues to spin. I am making an attempt to keep track of my progress in therapy/counseling. Dr. Harper seems pretty cool, but I need more. Eventually Stacie will have to come into the picture somehow. Her participation and understanding of the process and my progress is crucial. A class and great notes is not going to cut it.

Since the rent is going up $100, we have decided not to renew our lease. We are moving out of Shadow Hills Apt. by February 3, 2012. Samira and Sidney will continue to go school at Robert Gray and Rieke Elementary schools respectively. Both of them are doing very well in school. Sidney is going on a field trip this week. Report on that next week. Samira is playing basketball again for Showtime.

I have been working graveyard shift as a security guard for ABM Security since September 14, 2011. It's not glamorous, nor desirable, but it pays the bills for now. I still want to write but I have been hit incredibly hard by a writer's block and I have been gripped by fear. The result is I can't seem to but anything down on paper and if I do, I don't feel it's good enough. I may need to mention that in counseling.

I have been to counseling for depression the past 2 weeks. The therapist is Dr. Theo Harper. He's OK, but I need to have more one-on-one time. My concern is that the information and counseling I get makes a difference in my relationship with with Stacie. I feel as if my marriage is coming apart and the worst thing is, Stacie seems totally oblivious to it. There's no real communication or connection between us. I have no social life and i don't even go to church anymore. (Con'd)

Way Too long

Twelve days in to the New Year and it feels as if nothing has really changed. Time and the measuring of time is as nothing more than an illusion. The past 6,000 years have been nothing more than a few minutes that are meant as a test for human consciousness. I am trying to move forward by seeking the help that I need as I grapple with the issues that plague me and infect my marriage, which I would describe as stale at this time. I will try to post on here at least once a week to mark my progress. It's something that I need to do to help began.